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“SHAME” is out now wherever you listen to music.
This song means more to me now that it did when I wrote it with Jamie in late 2019. I write a LOT of songs about being confused about what I feel (some might say a shameful amount!), or wondering why I don’t seem to feel things in a more “normal” way. We tried to wrap up that feeling a bit, then threw in some punch and dance (whaaaat???!!)
In full honesty, the past year and a half has been some of the most challenging time of my life. I’ve thought about ‘quitting’ music more than I’d like to admit, forged new & sloppy paths in order to stay stable, and called my parents more times than I have in the last 20 years combined, probably. I think I missed world mental health day but holy shit - in solidarity, guys. I’ve lost a lot of parts of myself I used to cling to for some kind of fleeting support, and I’m still not sure where to go or what to do with them.
I’m frequently grabbing for words that aren’t there to try and describe it. Of course one song will never do it all justice, but it’s crazy to look back on and find new meaning all over again. Sometimes it makes me feel like I’ve made no progress at all, and sometimes it makes me feel just that much closer to myself. Always always always gotta keep searching for some meaning, wherever you can find it.
Enjoy yourselves, hug your goddamn people!!!
lyrics
I don’t know what I’m asking for
I don’t feel if I feel
But I could do shame
I can place blame
Dripping guilt on my shoulders or
Holding it in my stomach
I can do shame
I can do shame
If I just keep taking
All this promise breaking
And I let it shake under my weight
Well I might believe it
Think the world’s too mean,
it’s gonna come for me in my sleep
Oh, I make it look easy
To be what I’m being
But lately I’m screaming
I don’t know what I’m asking for
I don’t feel if I feel
But I could do shame
Dripping guilt on my shoulders or
Holding it in my stomach
I could do shame
Yeah, I could do shame
All my problem antics
I’m so fine then I’m so panicked
Can I wash this out if I leave it in the sink?
Make no big transitions
Keep a real clean kitchen
Won’t just beg to someone
will you put this all on me?
Oh, I make it look easy
To be what I’m being
If you just believe it
I don’t know what I’m asking for
I don’t feel if I feel
But I could do shame
Dripping guilt on my shoulders or
Holding it in my stomach
I could do shame
And I can take blame
Yeah, I could do shame
You want what I’m having
I don’t even have it
I’m faking my way through the traffic I started
Swerving my way through your streets
Oh, I shine past the effort
But I’m doing no better
Still make it look easy
(oh my god, what?!)
I don’t know what I’m asking for
I don’t feel if I feel
But I could do shame
Dripping guilt on my shoulders or
Holding it in my stomach
I could do shame
And I can take blame
Yeah, I could do shame
credits
released October 15, 2021
written/produced with: Jamie Sierota
drums: Ross Hodgkinson
cover art photo: Caity Krone
mixed by: Jeremie Inhaber
mastered by: Scotty Desmarais
distro: Tone Tree Music
A hushed and low-lit EP from this Melbourne musician, where dreamlike melodies drift across a bed of tender guitar. Bandcamp New & Notable Aug 19, 2023
